Monday, April 26, 2010

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Tuesday, April 20, 2010


MidWest Burners
Interfuse - 4/29 - 5/2 Ozark Avalon, Boonville, MO
HullabalU 2009 - September 26-27 Ozark Avalon, Boonville, Missouri

New Orleans

Camp Zoe Burn

North Carolina

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

3mi Run!

** run = 35mins.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Thursday, April 8, 2010


1. Loose weight - flushes down the by-products of fat breakdown; reduces hunger by being an appetite suppressant
2. Cures headaches
3. Skin - helps replenish skin tissues, moisturizes skin, and increases skin elasticity
4. Better exercise - helps regulate body temperature; feel more energetic when doing exercises; water helps to fuel your muscles
5. Better productivity at work - brain is mostly made up of water, thus drinking water helps you think better, be more alert, and more concentrated
6. Help in digestion and constipation - drinking water raises your metabolism because it helps in digestion
7. less cramps and sprains - proper hydration helps keep your joins and muscles lubricated, so you'll less likely get cramps and sprains
8. Less likely to get sick
9. Relieves fatigue - water is used by the body to help flush out toxins and waste products from the body
10. Better mood
11. Reduce risk of cancer

Average healthy water consumption - 8x8 = eight eight once glasses a day

To Address Problems of my Mind

While I have grown in so many ways, I have also fallen tremendously in the mind. Part of this project is to develop a sense of spirituality as before I began this journal I had little idea of what spirituality was and in particular the question of whether various hallucinogens are required to develop spirituality and to discover alternative methods to achieving mindfulness. While I have made little progress towards understanding the concept of spirituality, my virtues are at an all time low. While I in the past have considered myself a listener, thoughtful, tolerant and understanding, my temper as well as my ego have sky-rocketed. This entry's purpose is to allow myself to process key mental issues I have developed and are taking an extreme toll on my well-being mentally as well as any progress I might hope to achieve towards having a sense of spirituality.

1 - Temper: With some exceptions, I do feel that I am very forgiving and often overlook insignificant inconveniences in order to make my life as well as others around me simple. However, my problem lies within the way I react to other's tempers. I once had self control (that is control over my emotions) to tolerate other's moods and tempers; however, now my mind seems to feed into it and allow itself to be easily influenced by harsh tones and pettiness.
**Do not feed into negative mentalities; do not let yourself be influenced by them; hold your composure; solid mountain**

2 - Listening: I once thought of myself as a good listener. Frustration has completely washed that down the drain. While I feel I have heard the same things over and over and over again and the end always turns out the same...well, it doesn't matter. Everyone is entitled to speak their opinions and I must remember to be receptive to their thought process. This does not mean that I have to agree with them necessarily, but I at least owe it to others to allow them to express themselves - and me receive their emotions respectfully.
**Be respectful of other's emotions and opinions**

3 - Personal Attacks: I have slumped to their level; a tactic I never used but now use all too often. Who am I to judge? WHO AM I TO JUDGE? I have been judging way too much for my comfort and am completely ashamed of the things I have said. If disagreements arise, let them be.
**Do not bring other's down merely for the sake of pressing negativity on others.**

4 - Insecurities: have gotten way out of control. My insecurities in my physicality as well as my sexuality has been transposed on others, resulting in judgment and harsh remarks towards other women that are completely unwarranted. Again - WHO AM I TO JUDGE? Not to mention, I don't even know them. I merely express hatred towards sexy girls because I do not feel sexy myself. I am an extremely jealous person and express extreme negativity towards others that possess qualities that I wish I had. While I am working on becoming someone I am proud of...
**I can NOT transfer negative energy I have towards myself onto others.**

5 - Ego: What to even say about my ego! I still have no clue - once I thought it was never big enough and that my problem was that I had no self-confidence. Is that the ego, self-confidence? Or maybe I have a huge ego when I'm around people that I am close with - rather than working together with loved ones to grow, I find myself in competition. The Ego is certainly something that needs to be addressed further (see The Power of Now?)
**For now, be mindful of the ego. Competition only leads to darkness**


The Partner for Life -
Caring and kind. Smart. Very organized. Likes to have the last word. Good to find, but hard to keep. Passionate, wonderful lovers. Fun to be around. Too trusting at times and gets hurt easily. VERY caring. They always try to do the right thing and sometimes gets the short end of the stick. They sometimes get used by others and get hurt because of their trusting. Extremely weird but in a good way. Good sense of humor!!! Thoughtful. Loves to joke. Silly, fun and sweet. Good friend to other but needs to be choosy on who they allow their friends to be.

DexFest: Cosmic Clearance

Tickets $90 - 9hr. drive - D O N E

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Larry Carlson

The Wonderful World of Larry Carlson

Meditation Exercises

Thich Nhat Hanh - The Buddha and Enlightenment (others)

Exercise One: Breathing In, Breathing Out
In Breath, out breath stops the thinking. By thinking too much, we are not truly ourselves. Our body might be here, but our minds may be somewhere else - either in the future or the past. Being aware of your breathing allows one to combine body and mind in the present. Breath in, breath out will lead to mindfulness - being aware of what's going on. Obtaining oneness of body and mind, allows you to be there truly yourself. Everything that is wonderful and refreshing is in the present. Happiness, peace, and joy are found in the present moment.

Exercise Two: Flower Fresh
Breathing in I see myself as a flower; breathing out I feel fresh.

Smiling with the eyes and the mouth
Exercise Three: Mountain Solid
Controlling ones emotions; strong and steady
Exercise Four: Water Reflecting
Smooth water so that one can realize truth
Exercise Five: Space Free
Space is needed for the inside and out

2Mi. Run

User Training Log

Time Taken = 20mins.
Distance = 2.07mi.
Speed = 6.21 mi/hr. OR 1mi/10mins
BMI = 21

Regular Route

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Q7: Anything else?

Is there anything else you would like to tell us?

Reading and hearing stories about Burning Man make me so unbearably anxious.

Q8: BM comminity mean to you?

What does the Burning Man community represent to you? (You can answer this even if you have never attended the event)

The Art House.

Q7: Why scholarship this year?

Why do you feel you need a scholarship this year?

Q7: Hobbies, likes, loves, dreams?

What are your hobbies, likes, loves, dreams?

In my opinion, the value of education is priceless - an easy route and opportunity to be entirely productive for yourself.

Q6: Employment?

What do you do to pay the bills and keep the landlord off your back? What is your monthly income? (It is important that you answer this question truthfully. All of your personal information in this application is strictly confidential.)

Currently I'm employed by Chaffe McCall, LLP as a File Clerk which pays $1300 a month (actively seeking other employment in the field of social research).

Q5: Participate in Future?

How do you plan to participate in the future?

While I know one should never have expectations - I'm hoping that Burning Man will consecrate in myself this ideology I want to live by, and thus either gravitate toward other like-minded people OR having a positive influence on others and ultimately to find/initiate an art house in my own back yard.

Q4: Plans for camping/living?

Please describe your plans for camping/living in BRC?

Currently - looking on Craigslist for a ride.
Any suggestions?

After I get there, its hard to say.

Q3: Asset to the community?

Why do you feel that you are an asset to the community?


Organization among chaos (if needed)
Logic and reason among chaos (if needed)
I'm not an extremist
Provide a balance for those I interact with or that might need it - that is between those that embodies ultra-liberal paradigms as well as ultra-conservative paradigms.

However, I'm also hoping to purge my moderation.
Moderation is important, even moderation.

Balance is essential.

Q2: Contribution to BRC?

How are you planning to contribute to Black Rock City this year?

When the beat hits just right, I'll hit it into "rabbit-speed dance mode - using every limb and fiber of my body to transmit
Physical - modern dance - definition.

My passion for modern dance developed when I was a member of the Joni Rodman Dance Company through out high school. This unique dance program allowed students to independently choose their own music, choose their group to perform with, collaborate to choreograph movement, choose lighting and costume. Performance through this medium provided an outlet for my emotions (TNT)

While many adults have phased out an avenue of artistic expression, it is quite possibly one of the most effective means of channeling emotional energy. - Art therapy.

Incorporation of poi into modern dance.

Q1: Why BM now?

If this is your first year attending Burning Man, why do you feel the need to go to Burning Man now?

"Feb. 26, 2010. Carpe Diem. I believe in the ability for a collective consciousness to have influence on the individual. The power of social connections and environment are unfathomable as, in many instances, one's actions and attitudes are directly influenced by their environment. Some *lucky* individuals exist in an environment that is supportive, conscious of our surroundings, and overall positive, an environment I will refer to as "the art house".

The art house offers many varieties of life. By living in this supportive environment, each individual offers many life enhancing thoughts and actions that better the collective. These fields pertain to the enjoyment and appreciation of activities such as healthy diet, exercise, music, dance, art, adventure, nature, literature, spirituality, community, and positive mentality. As a result of each individual's input, the art house as a collective stimulates the being and allows it to enjoy the infinity this world has to offer. The possibilities are endless and with the right collective consciousness, your support group can allow the individual to maximize the profits of being - Carpe Diem.

However, let's consider an individual beginning from scratch, from new. While one is knowledgeable of the existence of this type of environment, one has yet to find a group of individuals that actively practice the individual's ideal lifestyle. At this moment, this individual lacks a spiritual support group, an artistic or creative environment, and the structure of an educational system to stimulate the mind. Is the individual able to create this ideal lifestyle without support?

Here I aim to keep a journal - The Final Mission to the Heart of the Sun - where I will document my efforts as an individual to actively create an environment that mimics the mentality of the Art House."

Beginning with my first journal entry, I have taken advantage of my days - becoming more active and creative through many different mediums. The final purpose being that I want to become someone that I am proud of in terms of creativity, mind-space, and health - to get as much out of the day as possible. To attend Burning Man now...I'm ready for it. I want to contribute my art and love of modern dance, costume, and even my morality, sentiments, and sense of humor - while wanting to exceed my own limits and mental capacity for the other - spiritually or culturally.


Dr. Damion A. Hew (504) 903-3000
Dr. Colomb (504) 523-3160
McDonald (504) 556-7163
Serpas Wallace (504) 525-9990