Thursday, October 28, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Sunday, October 24, 2010
Dear Zach and Yo-Yo
O Hai, Zach and Yo-Yo!
I appreciate your intuition to seek me out at PDF and scoop me up - I never thought that after only a weekend such a relationship would fostered – a few words to describe…
As I may have mentioned, I used to have serious issues with *j e a l o u s y* Within my first few weeks of being consciously introspective, I quickly came to recognize that feelings of jealousy were frequent and excessive – jealous of other’s success, happiness, intellect, confidence, sexuality – everything that would be defined in social interactions. Since that last September, I was fortunate enough to have a series of experiences and revelations that led me to my current glowing head space. Among many conclusions, I came to recognize that my jealousy was the primary inhibitor to personal development and ultimately self-love. While I indubitably conversed with these individuals, gaining knowledge of any perspective at hand, a piece of my mind expressed undertones of resentment. These undertones prevented me from actively taking the next step in becoming my ideal self. I concluded:
**While recognizing that some are further along their paths than others, my path is unique and progressive with unrelenting hope that I will foster self-love. Squash feelings of jealousy and resentment and cherish these interactions, allowing them to effectuate inspiration and motivation**
That being said…the moment I stepped in my car to return home, my mind degenerated back to green and my insecurities resurfaced as I slid back to square one. With guidance from Osho, I did not fight my jealousy but rather mediated on it and I quickly remembered what I had taught myself these past few months – turning intimidation into motivation. I remain confident that I’m on my right course and with your company I am excited to challenge myself. While many aspects of this knowledge are merely theoretical, I can make this potential energy kinetic. While I have a terrific resume and GPA for Social Research, I have one month to achieve a fantastic GRE score to add to the list. I also plan to apply to some more outstanding Social Research schools that are out-of-state such as Austin or Chicago, taking on extra costs at my own expense - the primary goal being to find the best challenging program for me.
It’s all too much fun and I hope to share again with you soon.
Love as always,
Leslie
Monday, September 20, 2010
Poi and Meditation - from Elliot
I decided two weekends ago that meditation by staying perfectly still was not for me and that I would start using various forms of movement to give my mind a break. While I almost always do this at shows when I dance my ass off, I can't wait to do my own form of meditation with my poi.
Love to you as always all the way from the East Coast,
Leslie
Elliot writes -
poi is a great form of meditation. i've always found the same to be true with me... simply sitting and relaxing my mind in order to clear it isn't as effective for me as doing something. poi is an amazing tool for that, it's not like you really have to think too hard about what you're doing (unless you're trying to learn something new specifically) but gives your mind an outlet and something to lose focus on. for instance when i'm spinning i don't really think about the goings on of my life, other people, desires... anything. not even really what "move" or "trick" i'm doing... i let myself focus on the flow, and probably the most direct thoughts i have are about whether i'm pleased with the way it feels or disappointed. disappointed isn't really even the right word... it's more like i either like what i'm doing or what to try something different. the poi control themselves in a sense, they go where they want to with minimal interaction from you...
lol now that i got all profound and mysterious... i think you'll have much success using them for that purpose :)
Movement
Take a conscious breath -
In Out
Feel the steady heart that radiates into a glowing aura, enveloping my body -
A strong sensation of love for myself that germinates from my core.
Now feel my arms around you,
Your arms around me,
My head against your head,
Your head against mine.
Through an exothermic reaction between the exchange of our most purest and joyous energy, sparks of light form between our matter.
Now feel my cheek against your cheek,
Your cheek against mine.
Take a conscious breath -
Feel the wavelengths settle, relax, and sigh.
Bask in the afterglow.
At this convergence, our pathways have merged for a moment in time and space. With the recognition that out two pathways are different - some further along than others, this connection exists as a celebration of our ultimate journey for self love and love for others.
“Happy Burn-Day”.
