Separation Anxiety

A focal change in my life.

A move.

A move towards breaking my barriers, a move towards experimentation, a move towards self-assurance.

I have been raised in conformity, I have been brought up to follow the law, to do well in school, to get a job, to have kids, to be appropriate, to be flexible and likable.

What happened to the rebellion I once had in my youth. Think back.

I know and want nonconformity. I know and want an alternative lifestyle. I want to be myself.

I want...

>>mind-altering<<

It is the root source of my jealousy - jealous of those that have no fear in being themselves.

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While I am on my own quest, I need to find comfort in the fact that my most closest friends are on the same quest and admire those that have taken that long journey.

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It is strange to think that in a world of homogenization and a culture of individual suppresion, the counter-culture is equally competitive. Focus on the B A L A NC E and being G E N U I N E.

Wakarusa 2010

I have almost the same revelation everytime I return from a festival. Just when my mind is slipping from stability, I feel my attributes aren't worthy, my mentality and ideology are running astray and leading me down a path of wants and insecurities, the good vibrations of a festival fume through the atmosphere and remind me that I have been selling myself short and that I am fully capable of contributing to create a positive community.

<3 There's no place like home <3

Just the Jist

Carpe Diem.

I believe in the ability for a collective consciousness to have influence on the individual. The power of social connections and environment are unfathomable. In many instances, one's actions and attitudes are directly influenced by their environment. Some *lucky* individuals exist in such a supportive, conscious, and overall positive environment, what I will refer to as "the art house".

The art house offers many varieties of life. By living in this supportive environment, each individual offers many life enhancing thoughts and actions that better the collective. These fields pertain to the enjoyment and appreciation of activities such as,
- healthy diet
- exercise
- music
- dance
- art
- adventure
- nature
- literature
- community
- positive mentality

As a result of each individual's input, the art house as a collective stimulates the being and allows it to enjoy the infinity this world has to offer. The possibilities are endless and with the right collective consciousness, your support group can allow the individual to maximize the profits of being - Carpe Diem.

However, let's consider an individual beginning from scratch, from new. While one is knowledgeable of the existence of this type of environment, one has yet to find a group of individuals that actively practice the individual's ideal lifestyle. At this moment, this individual lacks a spiritual support group, an artistic or creative environment, and the structure of an educational system to stimulate the mind. Is the individual able to create this ideal lifestyle without support?

Here I aim to keep a journal - The Final Mission to the Heart of the Sun - where I will document my efforts as an individual to actively create an environment that mimics the mentality of the art house.